Interesting Times

One-sided games and uneventful movies are not interesting. We enjoy uncertainty while watching a movie or a match. We even find anxious moments of our own life exciting, but those of the past. We are presently facing some anxious times, which I’m sure we’ll find interesting to look back at.

Over the last one month, we’ve had some major differences of opinion with the founders of the community we’re staying in. We’re now at a point where the founders are no longer interested in the idea of creating a community. There were two founders. One of them has withdrawn and the other one works with an approach, which (in our opinion) is in complete contrast to the kind of community this was supposed to be. We are the only family living on the ground, adhering to all the principles, this community would have had. But we find ourselves unwelcome in a land, we don’t own. And, we’ve invested so much time, effort, money and hope turning a rocky hillock into a nice house!

Though we’re neither been hinted to vacate nor do we think we will be asked to, the mental framework has flipped completely. What appeared as interesting challenges earlier, now seem to appear as fights for basic living. Almost everyday in the last month or so, Rekha and I have spent lots of time reviewing our reasons for moving here. Inevitably there are moments of doubt about having plunged into this way of life, letting go off the obvious comforts and certainty of an elite urban lifestyle. What is evident to me is that my conviction in the decision is strengthening and Rekha’s conviction is weakening. When the mind wanders in the terrain of negativity, everything appears negative. The decisions of pulling children out of school and giving up a predictable corporate career also seem clouded by doubt. From two minds seemingly thinking alike, we now are two minds thinking unlike.

What both of us seem to agree with is that we should move to another place and that our movement should be to a new place, rather than away from this place. Let the positivity of another place pull us rather than getting pushed by the negativity of this place. The exploration has begun.

Interesting times indeed!